bout to go out! :)
bout to go out! :)
want it now. nownownownownownow. going to go to bed so then only 1 day stands between me and drankz.
hahahaha :) it’s been a hard week okay…
BUT on Saturday it’s my 21st birthday!
That’s the only thing keeping me going….
A few weeks ago I brought over some shorts from my parents house that didn’t quite fit, but figured they would sometime soon.
And I just tried them on.
AND THEY FIT.
AND AND AND AND AND these are shorts that I have not worn since summer 2008.
I am just really proud and happy for myself right now.
PS. size 8. hellz yeah.
I’m going to finish going through my clothes and getting rid of the ones I will never wear again aka too big or unflattering. Then drop them off at my parents house so they don’t take up so much room at my townhouse, and THEN, I think, I’m going to take a ‘during’ picture with a bikini I used to take my before picture a while ago.
It’s still weird.
But my eating has been pretty great nonetheless, and maybe not using the scale is letting me appreciate that a lot more than I would have if I was using it.
It’s as simple as that.
Usually when I am not weighing myself on a regular/frequent/obsessive basis it is because I am going through a period of bingeing usually due to stress and I know I am gaining weight, feel really out of control, and want to completely avoid the facts.
I assumed that it would just happen again if I stopped weighing myself, but I realized that before I was avoiding the scale, but now I am deciding not to use it to base my progress off of.
So far, I like it.
because I like how walks make me feel.
and it’s basically about rejecting any sort of diet mentality, and letting your body regulate itself, which we’ve been taught not to do from societal pressures, which all makes sense. But one thing it suggests is to basically throw away the scale, because basing your progress or your body off of a number puts you back in the diet mentality and away from intuitive eating.
Which I like the idea of, but also makes me nervous. I don’t know.
Have any of you ever read this book?
you’re used to looking in the mirror and automatically thinking that you don’t like how you look, but instead, feeling like you look kinda cute today. It’s nice. I think I could get used to it.
because when I’m lacking in the exercise department, like I am currently, I realize that it kinda counts for something! I mean there are a lot of hills and speed-walking, cause I’m running late a lot of the time. It’s nice.
I have the opportunity to park in a closer parking lot next semester when I have more credits, but I think I might just stick with the farther one anyways.
so stressed and overwhelmed and would like a minute to just be able to breathe.
damn you biology.
Going to sleep and waking up early to do my lab report. Yay sleep deprivation.